Lover Nature

Today is Beltane, one of my favorite celebrations of the year.  
This is the peak of Spring when we celebrate fertility, fecundity, conception, the life force of Gaia at her most potent. This is the time for May pole dancing, flower crowns, and creating intention and ritual around dreams and visions. In ancient stories this is when the May Queen and May King mated in the sacred marriage. This “portal” is open from sunset April 30 to sunset May 1st (tonight)
 

Recently I saw someone post, "Instead of Mother Nature, why not call her her Lover Nature instead?" 
( I can’t remember exactly where I saw this, but it stuck) 
I love this and have certainly felt the eros of nature awakening in me over the last few weeks while I've been in  lockdown in Topanga.

During this quarantine I, like so many, have been super isolated and missing human physical touch. And subsequently, as I am here in the heavenly hills of Topanga, nature has become my lover. 

I could feel this deepening intimacy with Gaia starting immediately the first week we entered into lockdown. The massive trunks of oak trees held me and calmed my nerves as the anxiety rippled through. Then the intertwining tendrils of greenery in my garden cuddled and tickled me on sunny days helping me remember my innocence and joy. 
Recently the spring flowers have been slowly, softly inviting open the petals within me. 
And finally the ocean broke me open last week with a rush of juicy erotic freedom. 
I once again feel that hum of aliveness in my pelvis keeping me company throughout my days. 

I feel like I’ve become some kind of erotically charged nature nun, ceremoniously making love daily to Gaia on meadow floors. :)

Last night at sunset I picked wild flowers in my favorite meadow and lay on my back soaking in the pulpy essence of earth eros. It felt like a baptism of sorts. I could feel myself being washed clean from the anxious energetic debris of the collective I’ve been holding; All the fuzz in my system from too much time on the computer (trying to understand wtf is going on).